Friday, April 10, 2015

Kindness

I want to thank everyone who commented, phoned, emailed or knocked on my door, for your kind and compassionate words about Ozzy.  Sometimes grief can be so isolating, making misery and pain the only companions in the quiet, echoing silence.  It's helped me immeasurably to hear from all of you, dear readers, friends and family.

Ozzy was the last link to my life in Scotland.  Over this past week I've been mired in memories of Edinburgh, Alan, Ozzy and all the adventures shared between the three of us.  I mourn the loss of the two guys who meant the most to me, and also the country that became my home. A triple whammy, really, that left such a deep, gaping hole, I could swear I heard the wind whistling around the broken corners of my heart when I tried to sleep at night.

But then, in one of those inexplicable and mysterious moments, I had a dream.  Alan was walking across emerald green grass, Ozzy running and bouncing at his side, happy in the bright sunshine. Neither turned to look back at me and I wanted to call out, but then I realized it was okay, I'd been given a gift, to know they were together.

My dream was probably no more than wishful thinking, a trick of the mind to give me a sense of peace...although I choose to think otherwise.

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  1. I can empathize. When I put Chevy down, I felt I'd lost one of the last ties to my parents as my parents, and them being out in eastern Colorado with the farm. Milarepa was born of one of the last litters from my mother's dogs. I dread that day in the future.

    Hang in there...

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    1. Links are broken all the time in life, for whatever reason. I guess the hope is that we forge new ones.

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  2. I've had too many dreams come true to consider them a trick of the mind. :) I'm glad you're back.

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    1. Me too...so I'll take the dream gift and treasure it.
      Fingers are a bit bloody from climbing out of the abyss, but yeah, I'm back...more or less.

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  3. I have always believed that our loved ones find each other on the other side.
    Hugs

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    1. A good belief to hold close...and hey, thanks for the hug...;D

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